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My soul waits, silently as time flies, swiftly Yet, my thought wanders as elusiveness lingers what, who, and when torment yearning for a fulfillment

  One year ago when the first time we meet each other   Nothing words and nothing sentences from my mouth   You are the one, who none can be you if not you   So natural so unpredictable   You go when all of us want to see you are smiling   Then you come when all of us are give up to invite you   Yesterday is gone and tomorrow is still in the God’s hand   We are really honor to welcome you   Being a part of this community, being a part of our story   Pinky changes sadness into happiness   Pinky makes darknees so shines   Pinky will always tune on our hearts   If you realise, all of people need another people, then why should you let pinky so colourly but lonely, no, company that pinky with your red, with your green, white, black, blue and all colour that you got, cause it’s a mercy, one thing that you can’t deny   Oh pinky I have nothing to give you,,,thank you for your everything   Come on tell ...

In the middle of this sky bridge   In which I could see clearly some palm trees around   If you were here , you might be agree     The city that bright with thousand of lights in Eid Mubarak   Now is in silent with hundred of shocks , mourning , weep and uncertainty   This is a part of Melbourne , Caulfield in the last days of Ramadhan     Really , I could see and feel Baghdad .   The story of this 1001 night’s city remains   Remain in sorrow to me   If only you were here   In ont-family: Verdana">this sky bridge with me  

  Jump ahead 2-3 Steps faster   Never underestimate your mates Fair dinkum   No worries, what you did last night no one knows Just like a leap Frog   Go away, and run away Put yourself into consideration   Never blame yourself             I am here for you mate

Cloudy sky today depicts my feeling Flocks of birds are lazy to fly I myself trap in a silence    Freezing and chilling had pass However my heart remains unchanged My dream, my emotion, my longing Sky suddenly changes it colours From blue sea into dark land Neither here or elsewhere I straight myself to be sensitive Cloudy sky could you away for a while Noisy around me but i feel the opposite

I lost my soul   When I have to be stronger   I blame myself   But why I have to do it   Dissappear from sunshine   Because my world is too dark   What’s happening? My eyes is blind   Can you show me a way out, please?   Who try harder, a better you get   Till I am weak, I’ll never give up to breath   Where are you guys   I am alone without you   Stand by me, like we just wake up, then we smell the coffe….   I have to find   I must run and run   From a scary moment   Wait for me   I don’t know how   But I’ll try….  

Make a move      Make it little bit artistic. Make a wish      Make it real Make a joke      Make it fun Make an effort      Make it count Make a dream      Make it true Make a poem      Make it romantic Make a love     Make it peaceful

When you fall in my left shoulder   Really warm come in me   And you kiss my cold body   Do you still…..me?   When weep is nonsense   What a magnificent of you   I keep and I hold it till I free   To runaway….   Do you wish me to…..?   All promise could be a lie here   All hopes remind me the past   A jealousy, hate, cruel and conspiracy   Forced and frankly like a hell   Where is the paradise   In the sky maybe   But heaven you found here   In the earth, in the ocean, in the pure   I miss my past   Love and peace I ever have   I want you!    

Neither do I can recognize When the blur covering your face Neither do I could understand Why and when the dilemma ended As if life is a roller coaster Someday you might find yourself Far away and remote just above the blue sky But then dramatically fall just beneath the sea Please do not face-off Just walk tall, so you can stand Otherwise this journey would exhausted you Neither do I can deny That you just play the role In the game in which no body unbreakable Believe yourself, you are what you are No need to fear.   (Victoria, 4th September, 2006)

  In the corner of this city Just in front of the rail station It was just too early if the birds which usually sing gone home. When I was child, a train for me was similar to a big dragon. With patient I wait for that to pass and I run after it Nowadays almost every single hour I heard and see people and I commute by it I miss my childhood, a pax where I could yell and scream loudly to the big dragon. I miss my past, an era where I may spoilt about anything I like. In the corner of this city, one train drop the passengers by Then soon left me, who could not scream anymore alone I am in front of the station still. Do not ignore me my big dragon, come to see me please.

How are you doing sunshine? Still I admire you up to now Loyalty, truth and trust Don’t you know what is going on there? Lord the almighty Could you please always keep them? Even raining or dray, give them your blessing Although my feeling is hurt They smiled at me with their deepest heart Please let them to cheer Here I am, without any abilities, except praying Someday when the ray shiny I’ll come back to them for a while How do you do sunshine? Peace be upon to you My best for them   Victoria, August 31, 2006

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The Paket   Rainbow bark to the sea Wind come suddenly wash hair With a dirty hand Student suicide coz the point under 4.25 But two other get 9 or 8 The boldman still in the chair Said that you may get a Paket C Coz that same either with high school   Beside that The from nite attack At the largest hotel Sound of the crowded Drink to the sky With a good style Not worried about the Paket 

he is there laughing, yelling, talking what a great man he is face with no fear and tears one expected by everybody   one day i saw him rolling in my corner blank eyes wet cheecks messy hair mumbling lips uttering nothing but hate what happiness mean? can you tell me? -special thing doesn't happen to everybody-

is it a sin to love him? everybody say that he is not a good guy is it a sin to adore him? everybody say that he hurts me all the time is it a sin if i want to keep my pain? everybody say law rules my day is it a sin if i decide to shut my mouth? no body say a thing

Eyes I used to believe that comprehension began with eyes; that what they failed to understand, was insensibility. Every time a picture renders a thousand words, they claim the first to know; and if it were not through them, how would we fall for the beauty of a look? But then I learned that deception was easiest to cloud them; that the pair I’ve had might lie, at times like when they suggest the bigness of near and smallness of far. When a picture offers a thousand words, they may be the first to be deceived; and if it were not through them, why have many hearts ached at the tyranny of the skin deep?

To the Memory of Jim Dang Angry, selfish, vengeful, I had asked only one small favor, That I could say "I love you" once more To you, who liked Southern California Warmth, your family, the breeze From the sea tossing the hair You so despaired of losing. You bring a sad smile to my face, You who were trapped in a world That embraced with unloving arms. Did justice sleep? Where was good hiding? Behind the prophets of our religions? Hiding from you in the Castro One rainy Sunday while you And your trenchcoat huddled, Not caring about the chill in your bones, About the wasting away, And just waited for the ride that always seemed To be on its way?   Thomas McMillan February 17, 1999  

Are you last night Beside the door of light In the deepest sea Push the bottom of life

Rain fall from your eyes And I sat in your dreams Bring the rainbow And dancing in the line of colour   In the name of wind your going turn on the rain And the fire didn’t send the clue where is the rope Who can hang and fastening the universe   The letter of words jump from the deep of your tongue And we become the time

Drown in your body Little by little  The painting won’t tell  a secret In line who made up   And I am drown again Become one body